It’s true, the 108 day mark has come and gone as I took a little break from sharing my…perspective and contemplation. Whops, it turns out I am human, just like the rest of us, and even though I teach yoga, doesn’t mean I have anything more figured out. (Maybe I have just spent a little too much time thinking about it, yoga, life, how to participate).
In this little space, I woke up to how out of balance my own life has become. In some sense I was cracked open to my own little ‘shit’ story and served a royal serving of humble pie. Sounds great…not. But since that moment that where my own personal practice of yoga helped me out (which by the way there wasn’t a single handstand, pigeon, down dog, or twist for that matter) my perspective has radically shifted. It was seeing that too much energy was going in one direction and not enough energy in the other directions and I personally was the biggest problem standing in the way.
(It’s my stuff, so I am not going into it, and there is no need to because if you are reading this, then you probably have stuff as well and if your life is balanced, then you probably have something you could share with me.)
But I wonder…is your life balanced…where are you choosing to act from…are you sitting in the dark….are you dancing in the light? I don’t have the answers, but I am learning it’s ok to stand in the brackish waters with open wounds. Yes it stings at first, but then with acceptance, the true healing can begin and balance is restored (that or the tide goes out :).
Oh, yes, we are so human… and that raw, difficult, oh I can’t believe I did that again stuff of being human is what helps us to really connect with what we are trying to teach. I like to think that I have been given so much to work on for myself so I can then be a light on the path for others. So much love for you! Joy
A deep thought. I can’t say that I’ve done the mindful practice of yoga, but when I read blogs like yours it sorta sticks in my mind for my next practice. Sorry, I can’t help you to find balance. I believe some people don’t even realize their imbalanced, so I think you’re on the right track at realizing imbalance and wanting to fell it out.
I’m interested in your perspective of life..you may not have traveled as long as I have …but you sure have traveled further..
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Wow what a great message for me today. I am trying to get my life back in balance as well. I come from a long line of people who do everything to excess and that is how I lived my life until I woke up one day and realized what I had been doing wrong.(we have a name but it is personal) I have that excessive compuslive gene and practice it in everything I do from work, to physical activities, to drinking and every other aspect of my life. Even things that are normally good for most people I take to excess and turn them into something negative.
For a while I was a runner. Good thing right? But one or two miles each day wasn’t enough. Before I knew it, I was running 3-5 miles a day during the week and 10-15 miles a day on weekends. Yes I was in great shape but I was doing nothing but running. (too much energy in one direction and not enough in the others) And then when my life changed and I could no longer devote so much time to running, my world went crazy. I suffered mentally and physically.
Some people are devoted to their church, others to excercise and some to yoga. Again all good things but there has to be a balance. It’s kind of like putting all your eggs in one basket. If that basket falls, all is lost.
As far as standing in the brackish waters, I have recently found out that all it takes is a bit of faith that the stinging will go away. And it does. Once youg get past the pain there is a whole world out there waiting to help you out. Life is so good for me now. I just had to be patient and have faith that the universe is whole and good and that it has it’s own way and that isn’t always my way. Focus on the positives and you will see positive things.
Thanks for your comments and offerings…much appreciated and it’s nice to hear other people’s thoughts too!